Not For Fragile Hearts!

well let's see, this blog's content have been floating in my head forming hundreds of disconnected sentences that up to this moment failed to have that sense of coherence a reader would find in any blog. But since my blog stats denote that  65% of my readers are from Australia and 23% are from China 3% scattered between Russia and Europe and the rest are in Jordan, which are probably mine, then why on earth should I be coherent for a so incoherent Audience which might be comprised of 10 or less people? lets face it; my blogs are not informative, they are not going to mess up somebody's life let alone change one!  so here you go a blog of incoherent mostly trivial Ideas that have been boggling my mind for a while and being  me says that I walk it off and write it off, because talking it off well ummm is not productive!

so our lovely community is made up of people those people share a common belief sometimes or a common something that makes them a community. those beliefs grow and maybe change through time which negates the soul of the word belief! so midst that noise there is always an even noisier voice in my head that has a problem or a gift, I don't know, that is called: "NO I DON'T GET WOWED EASILY AND I THINK IN A TWISTED WAY THAT YOU WON'T REALLY GET" so my "NO I DON'T GET WOWED EASILY AND I THINK IN A TWISTED WAY THAT YOU WON'T REALLY GET" brain was observing for the last couple of years the uprising of the Jordanian entrepreneurs, artists, volunteering movements and so many other frenzies in Amman and said: wow! that must be something everyone in here are awesome and great, all are good and important all share great beliefs, aha moments; that really got me into a place where I started seeing a friggin bumper sticker up everybody's brain, so that what ever they blurt whatever they do all I see are bad versions of Oprah Winfrey caking herself into our brains playing bad violin back ground music and feeding us bull*** so everyone is so important, so good and so.. well bumper-stickery!!

yes we do live right now in a bumper-stickerized community that thinks they are oh so awesome and oh so cool, oh so individualized and oh so going to change the world. so karma-philic, Oprah Winfric and so so sickening to me now! I used to be immersed in that world as well, not so long ago I used to be a bumper sticker on two legs then one day I looked myself in the eye and found out that I really think that I need to be more selfish, more trivial and more opposite!

dear my so incoherent reader, I don't expect any of the above to make sense because I am not trying to make any,  I don't think you are important, nor do I think I am, I am me and you are you, our level of importance is not of importance, our satisfactions, dreams, desires, love, hatred, disappointments are supposed to be treated like eating and taking dumps, just let them pass through. if one day you feel like baring your so called soul just do it, but bear in mind that by doing so you are not getting more important nor enlightening someone else's path. the world is not waiting you nor anyone else to make it more important at least my world.


sincerely,
Mayse!


To be Continued..or not!

Situation

Sit·u·a·tionNoun/ˌsiCHo͞oˈāSHən/

1. A set of circumstances in which one finds oneself; a state of affairs.

2. The location and surroundings of a place.

Above is the Merriam Webster's definition of the word situation. I want to go further into analyzing this small word that the metamorphosis of which added to me leaded to a state of utter oblivion!

- 1. A set of circumstances in which one finds oneself:

what if you don't actually FIND yourself? what if you are air-headed and you don't really grasp the circumstances leading to complete detachment of the so called location or surroundings of the place which are mentioned above as a second meaning of the word thus being un-found? what does that make you?

- 2.The location and surroundings of a place.

well, that's tricky; what if you are not sure of the place, and the surroundings are a total blur? what if all of the places and their so called endless surroundings don't hold your being, don't embrace it and relentlessly expelling the shadows of the affairs being developed to create a vivid understanding for the so called situation?

life is a situation in the happening, a mere huge body of ever evolving, happening or past situations. But what if your "states" are unstated and your "affairs" are a blur? What if your circumstances aren't falling into place and yourself is detached from them as if you are just a beholder no more? where does that leave you?

I think a new word should be added to the dictionary:

Un-situation: a state where situations don't apply and fail to take place, when your places and surroundings are a mere background gone unrealized. a state where states don't take place and life fails to commence because you are not grasping anything and everything seems in need to be re-figured, re attached and re- placed!

"If you can keep your head about you when all about you are losing theirs, it's just possible you haven't grasped the situation" Jean Kerr

Mayse Al-Kilany
Amman

9.11.2011